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Problems Vampires Have
This has problems pertaining to dealing with "everyday" (everynight?) things for vampires. It can get in a light vein, but I would prefer it to be mainly enlightening (jeez, can I quit with these day puns, already???) as to actual problems that vampires have to deal with on a day-to-day (aaarrrggghhh!!!) basis.
[Sangi Tip: If regular sunglasses are not dark enough for you, you might check into getting a pair of welding glasses.]
I myself am not a vampire, at least I don't think so anyway, but my fiancee is. He is a Psi-vamp which is perfectly fine with me except that he sucks the energy out of me faster than I can replenish it. Most of the time I don't think he even realizes what he is doing. In fact, I think it may be some sort of sub-conscious feeding on his part because I feel the worst effects of it when I wake up in the morning. No matter how good of sleep I seem to have had I wake up next to him every morning feeling like I have just been hit by a train. I have even had to reduce my working hours as a result.
When I am gone someplace like out with friends or to visit my mom I do gain a lot of my energy level back but when I get back home and my fiancee is there with me I can literally feel the physical and emotional energy (well I call it that for lack of a better word but it's really feels more like my life itself) drained right out of me.
He feels so bad but I honestly don't think he knows how to control it,
besides trying to hang out at some busy places like the mall for awhile
before I come home.
From The Vampire's Bride, tiffanywieland (at) yahoo.com
My main problem is my vampiric nature itself. I am 23 and have been conscious of my nature since I was 15.
While at university, I met a guy who completely stole my heart. From very early on in the relationship I knew he was something special so I was open and honest about the vampiric side of my life and for a time he was even a donor to me. I thought I'd found the perfect match. As it turns out he didnt take me completely seriously and assumed it was all some blood play sex game. So that stopped after a while. I didnt mind, I wasnt going to force the one I loved into anything he didnt want and by that time I was adept at psi feeding and our close connection made it childs play to feed every night.
As the years wore on I we talked less and less about it. My symptoms however became more pronounced as I matured as a vampire (I was about 5 years awake at this point), the need to feed was always strong, I developed empathetic tendencies and could bring down, or be brought down by, a room just by entering it and I became reclusive and depressed and suffered migraines in times of stress and exposure to the sun and heat, at far lower levels that would affect a non-vampire. This was my darkest hour and it coencided with moving into a flat with my love and trying to establish a life together properly. It did not go well. We split and we saw different people for the next 8 months or so while still seeing each other. I just couldnt let him go completely and it was my vampiric nature that just wouldnt give up. It was at this time he started to express opinions along the line of 'i think your beliefs in vampirism are a symptom of mental illness'. Luckily I had a good network of friends and a donor who supported me through these accusations. But I loved him and I just stopped talking about it, stopped indulging in the outward signs of vampirism but continually fed from him as we lay beside each other at night as we considered getting back together.
But I reached breaking point and I had to admit to still feeling vampiric and not wanting to leave it behind. This caused another split and his insistence that I get psychological councilling. A few weeks after the split I agreed and started to go. By this point I was curious myself. I was open and honest about myself with the councilor and she actually turned around and said 'I dont think you're suffering from mental problems' and our sessions were in spring, and it was a hot one so I was not at my best. I turned down more in depth treatment because I'd found out what I wanted. That I was a healthy, stable vampire under attack for something I was honest about from the start. So we parted ways more forcefully and I threw myself out into the vampire scene in London. A meet up group (not real vampires though the organisers do run one) was where I met a gentleman who was everything I could have wanted, long hair, feminine, very intelligent and magnetically gothic. A true man of wealth and taste. We kissed and he gave me a lift home. A week later I had fallen into his life but even now I wasnt comfortable. He took me beyond anything I'd experienced before, both sexually and recreationally and out time together was exciting. As I tried to explain my nature to him he was dismissive but kind. Very kind, and comforting and desperate to take care for me. This desire to keep me as a lap cat began to grate on my nerves, I am a strong independant lady and I attribute a lot of that confidence to my vampiric side.
But my feelings for my love have endured and I've been forced to break off my attachment to my gentleman as I'm still so in love with my love. I cant escape the need to be with him. He brings out all my vampire passion and I would fight for him and protect him above my own life. I am regularly over come with the desire to devour him simply by the scent of his neck. He is my other half. But in order to be with him I needed to say the words 'I am not a vampire'. This simple sentence was so hard and I felt I'd betrayed my true self.
But if he cant understand what I am, maybe he is best off not knowing and I, like so many of us will live forever half in the shadows, concealing my real nature from those who cannot understand it and so are afraid of it. Its just such a shame when you love someone so much it overrides this truth, because I cannot survive without him.
Thank you for listening.
Contributed by VZ
Greetings from Portugal. Well, first of all I want to say that I want to thank the website www.sanguinarius.org for the truthful information available and that it is one of my favorite vampirism websites.
Now, I'll talk about my problems. I had problems in the school because
one guy discovered that I'm a psi-vamp and he tried to kill me in the
front of everyone. My luck was that a friend of mine protected me. Whatever...
it is past. Now i've a different mentality and I don't say to anyone what
I knew years ago one girl from Lisbon that is psi-sang vamp and she helped me a lot in the awakening. Unfortunately, I lost her contact... so, feel free to write / add me: email@example.com
Contibuted by Luís Coutinho
You wanna know a big problem? When friends don't accept you, you're left alone because they hate you and they LEAK YOUR SECRET! GOOD GOD I'm getting tired of the daily games of tease-the-vamp at my school because of some intolerant piece of **** spread it ALL THROUGH the place! And what's worse than being hated and annoyed is when you accidentally hurt someone when you vamp out because they're messing with you! I punched some ****er in the face, but thank god i didn't get caught or I would have been expelled. I punched him for dancing around saying, "Oh come on Dracula, I've got a lot of blood, right here! Come on, have a sip!" I need to punch him again; even though he cried the first time he STILL DOESN'T GET IT!
Contributed by Bloodwrath
Let me introduce myself. I prefer to be called The Countess. I awoke
20 years ago to the realization that I was different. In those days, there
were no forums...no support groups...nothing. Imagine if you will having
these very intense dreams with no explanation, being extremely sensitive
to light, nocturnal tendencies, blood lust, being able to manipulate energy..and
yes..being empathic. How about growing up in a house where Mormonism reigned
and not being able to tell a soul who I was or what I was going through.
I barely understood it myself.
Yes....there are still hunters and yes they have come knocking on my
doorstep. Those of you who do not believe this are foolish. They still
think that we are evil...that we are spawns of Satan...and need to be
exterminated. We can sit here all day and complain about the hunger or
other issues but this is the most threatening to all of us. Even if we
were to come forth and try to educate it is of no use. People only hear
what they want to hear and unless they want to change their thinking then
education and acceptance is futile. In my long existence this has been
the case and in this century it is no different. This is why we are still
on the fringe and continue to let Hollywood dictate what a vampire is.
This is why the RPGers have their stupid "houses" and such.
I agree that eventually we must come out of hiding...and I was hoping
it would be this century...but recent events have shown me otherwise.
Contributed by the Countess
I'm in high school. We work in indoor classrooms but the halls, lunch, etc. are all outdoors. I am exposed to a lot of sun and it gets pretty hard. People keep asking me why I always wear a jacket, especially when its really hot out. I just tell them its a habit, that I always wear a jacket. It gets very hot wearing a jacket, though.
Also I cant get a donor. Going a while without a donor makes me pretty moody and disengaged from my friends. I get angry easily. Last year my friend who is a HUGE role player wouldnt stop talking about it. I got pissed and didnt talk to her for four months. I get REALLY sensitive about the vampire jokes and games. Usually I can take it, but like I said, I cant get a donor. The blood lust gets really bad sometimes. Im a weird person though so because of that people dont notice my behavioral changes.
None of my friends know that Im a vampire. I tried telling one and it turns out she was, too. Yeah... she was a 600-yea-old vampire. Well, after that I hadnt tried telling anyone for a while (RPGers make things so hard). Recently, I came out about being a Satanist to my friends; they were all pretty cool with it. But I still havent got up the guts to tell my friends. Its really lonely and hard having no one to talk to about the day-to-day vampire problems.
Contributed by Sara
I am a 17-year-old recently awakened hybrid (sangi/psi) vamp. My problem is probably common. I have a problem with getting blood. I had a friend that would donate to me, but she has moved across the country, and only a couple other people know what I am... But they aren't willing to donate. So I have to get most of my energy from nature...which I have no problem with. But I get bad cravings for blood a lot. We don't have any butchers around where I live; we only have big delis, and I don't think I could get blood from them. I have a friend (well... more of an acquaintance really) who is a sang vamp, and he kills rabbits and other animals like that for blood, but I don't feel comfortable killing anything. And I don't really feel comfortable asking him to do it for me seeing as how we aren't very close, and he doesn't even know I've awakened. I drink my own sometimes when I really start vamping out for the taste of it...but that doesn't hold me very long. So, if you guys have any suggestions, or can help in any way... please email me at BSwolf13 (at)aol.com.
Thanks so much guys!
Contributed by -bloodless heart-
I feel cheated. All of these Vampire movies and books created out of
a romantic fear. A blood hungry creature that stalks the foul night, feasting
on man, woman and child mercilessly. This is not a correct portrayal of
me. I am not a dark, brooding night stalker who dreams of murderous meals.
I am kind. I am a loving woman. A mother, wife, lover and friend. I have
always known my true nature and been careful for fear of reprisal and
the ignorance of others. Of late, my protection of my nature and oftentimes
called satanic activity has been overshadowed by my need to inform and
give correct information. How long do we stand in shadows and operate
under a code of silence, while we are portrayed carelessly and without
thought to who we are, as people?
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